Depression Story By: Pamela

I am 50 years old and working as a personal care attendant.  I love plants, gardening, and arts and crafts.  I sing and play the piano, organ, and flute.  I experienced my first episode of depression in 1986 and have had around seven episodes, all ranging anywhere from 1 to 6 years.  My depression alienated me and made me feel isolated from the people that love and care about me the most.  I lost a job because of it.  I was desperate to find relief and am grateful for the love and caring attitude of Dr. Uspensky and his nurse, Lisa.  My happiness and life was at stake and I knew I needed help and was looking at the possibility of ECT.  TMS allowed me to continue with my life with little disruption to my daily activities.  I began to notice a change during the fourth week of treatment.  I began to get a handle on my thoughts.  I have been able to live again and life has become enjoyable for me.  NeuroStar was different for me because I got better much quicker than previous attempts at getting over my depressive episodes.

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3 Responses to “Pamela’s Story”

  1. Alfa Binkley on March 19th, 2012 8:22 am

    Pamela, your story is encouraging. I have had depression for 20 years. Some days are better than others but it is always a struggle to go on with life. I know that life is good it is just me that feels terrible. I am starting my TMS on Wednesday and not only hope to improve but to stay improved. My insurance does not cover the treatment. I have seen many people say the treatment worked for them but for how long? I hope you are doing well. alfa

  2. Janie on March 31st, 2012 3:43 pm

    Pamela,
    I’m so grateful for your story! I have suffered with depression and anxiety for some 20 years now. I started TMS about 2 1/2 weeks ago. I have so much more hope now that this horrible condition can be healed. I’m still having some ups and downs for now but you give me hope! Thank you for sharing your story!

  3. jenna on February 17th, 2015 9:03 am

    Hi, since this was posted nearly 3 years ago, i’m wondering if those of you who have done TMS have positive things to say about it. I’d like to try it but can’t imagine how I will pay for it. But i will try to find a way if i’m optimistic it could really help me. thanks.

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